Friday, January 22, 2016

CT Step 22 - I must understand the greater movement of the world. – Journal – CT Step 21


Today:  CT Step 22 - I must understand the greater movement of the world. (MP3)




I must understand the greater movement of the world. CT Step 22

Here you continue to build your understanding of the greater movement of the world. However, the desire for this must come from within you, and the capacity must be established or you will not be able to see or to know. Understanding the world in this way gives a greater context for your being here. Greater purpose cannot be realized within a narrow context. You must see yourself in a bigger way. You must establish your relationship with the world on a true foundation.

This is part of your foundation building. It is part of the expansion of your understanding and the range and scope of your mental and emotional capabilities. If you think about it, you will see that there are so many things that people cannot respond to emotionally or intellectually. They just cannot entertain these things. They are too big, too challenging or too different, and so they are just rejected out of hand.

But you are learning to be with life as it is and as it will be. You are preparing for the future in a way that will enable you to be in the future with a greater strength and efficacy.

Therefore, turn your eyes to the world again and ask the question, "What do I need to know about the world’s evolution and destiny?" Ask this question without providing your own answers, without emphasizing your preferences, without expressing your fears. These things may come to mind, and you will recognize them. But now you are waiting for a deeper understanding. You are calling for it. You are evoking it. You are asking the Creator to reveal it to you. You are calling upon Knowledge and opening yourself to Knowledge.

Practice today in addition to your one long practice in stillness and your hourly practices in awareness and discernment. Look and ask that you may see.

Practice 22:   One 30-minute stillness practice.
                          Contemplation practice.
                          Hourly practice.



Picture: In Utah, enroute from Salt Lake City to Moab on  U.S. 6 E. Wind farm and coal transport truck on the highway. October 20, 2015



First – the Review note card for each Step:

15 – Let me look towards the Greater Community to understand where my life is going. … Be visionary today and see beyond the normal parameters of your life. Just look. If you continue looking, you will see. If you can see, you will know.

16 – There are greater forces at work in the world. … If you can look without prejudice, fear or denial, you will be able to see very far, farther even than you thought you could. … If you are not dominated by your past, then you are able to see things as they are today, in a new way. …You will develop the eyes to see, the willingness to see and the desire to see.

17 – In your practice in stillness, if you are able to experience something greater than the mind, the mind will yield to Knowledge. … Ultimately, the only thing that can keep you from Knowledge is the mind. It may seem like the world is dominating you, but in reality it is the mind.

18 – Today I wish to know. … It is an affirmation…

19 – Just observe things. And inside, as you practice, develop stillness. … Bring yourself completely to your practice. It is a form of personal dedication.

20 – You are indeed here for a greater purpose. But do not define that purpose for yourself because at the appointed time, it will become known to you. … Build this inner awareness, this position of observing without condemnation in order to know. You need to know. You want to know.

21 – Review - Four Pillars Review - Recognize which Pillars are weak and require strengthening and readjustment. Recognize what change must be brought about, what alterations must be made, to give you strength and stability. For without this strength and stability, you cannot learn greater things, and you will constantly be thwarted by your Pillars not being effective in supporting you.

From the journal:

September 15, 2001 10:34 a.m. –: 42 Review – Here @ the end of the third week. I'm in my Study…because Cindy is vacuuming the house. I am compelled to more order, in order to focus on cooperation.

– cooperation is the "invisible hand" – God in the world. The response to all evil is cooperation – "resist not evil" – cooperate – for wherever two or more are gathered in my name, there am I also. The real meaning of "Christ" is "to cooperate"(?) To grow, boundaries and functions need to be established. That separation can be taken as fact for its surface mapping, yet below that is the life force in the universe.

If my job is to bring through ideas, then I must get them out of these journals and in to some circulation.

11:36 a.m. – Distracted (?) By the Office of Personnel Management.

12:29 p.m. – Distracted (?) by the need to get the bullet analogy out there. Learned Adelphia has a 250 email limit.

1:55 p.m. Yet to begin the review. I updated my dot.com website – in case anyone goes to check it for my crazy ideas.

3:28 p.m.@ Gainesboro Methodist Church or the homecoming weekend - The line is long – so I'll wait in the car and do the practice I've started four or more times. First I need to record my pain relative to David - who, when I called, said he was ready to go to jail. He'd flipped out and wanted the relationship with Jamie to end. Ever since his first arrest in New Bedford on the assault charge I've worked to keep him out of jail so he's not the exposed to that. Was I wrong all these years? It cost me lots of dollars and heartache. It is the heartache and sense of failure as a parent. Perhaps it's because I was trying to do it alone? I don't know. What have I learned? I cannot say – the report comes back as failure – but it is not as a judgment. Hindsight says don't spare people consequences of their actions…but when do you know if the consequences are earned/just.

So – to practice

4 pillars review
1 – Relationships – David – Pain is not evil. Blame serves no one. Honor your Father and Mother.
Sarah – Encouragement.
Cindy – Peace.
Mary Ellen – Forgiveness
Me – This is my son in whom I am well pleased.

2. Career & Providership
RC – The first movement of the symphony is close to completion. Continue to share for feedback. Time & Chaos software may help – use the Map. Peer reviews of article.

3. Health – Changes have been good. Go slow on strength training. It is needed. Tai chi – yes – free form for limbering.

4. Spiritual Advancement
Know – No – Know.

Repeat
1. Relationships –
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5:41 p.m. Break for dinner and bingo – return to practice – piggy full after eating @ the church social – a feast… – and now back to learn ... I hope.

– looking @ Step 15…everything in my life looks different – feels different – has a deeper meaning. I look @ those in the world and don't see many on this path.

– Step 16 – If I'm not dominated by the recent past – David's life and his rearing by Mary Ellen and I – if I just look at David and his life – what do I see? "I was doing my best every moment".

8:48 p.m. Still in Review. A discussion earlier this week - I had a nice NASCAR discussion with Dr. Del C.... We talked about Ricky Rudd – and the move Tide made on him. Del said it was difficult being a owner/driver and how, now being with Yates – Ricky could focus on the driving. The multi-car teams were doing better – more knowledge. He said with the Roush Team, Jack wanted to call all the shots. So doing the laundry it hit me that with the RC shift…I'm just the driver – I'm the talent. I don't have to deal with the owner problems – management B.S. – the game remains the same – make the bosses look good. With that stability, I'm free – unburdened – to go forward with Knowledge. p.s. This is truth… Not a rationalization. [– player/coach – that's hard - owner/driver]

Here – much has spilled out in my journal. Some is self-serving, and therefore of limited value. We could be wrestling with angels in our reviews; so long term consistency is what counts. With so many relationship problems, how does anything useful get done at all? I am understanding my unburdening. The shake-out process does take time. We continue.

NNC

Note: If you’ve some interest, but this is the first time you’ve seen Steps, you should go to the beginning blog post. From here you will learn about Steps to Knowledge and can begin it on the day that makes sense; then progress as needed. Begin at the beginning.

If you do know about Steps, but have not done Steps twice completely, read the related materials, and have a sense of the direction of this study, you won’t get the experience. The Introduction begins:

“This is the Steps to Knowledge Continuation Training. It is designed to build upon the Steps that were learned in Steps to Knowledge to enable you to experience the grace, the power and the direction of Knowledge in your life and to become an expression of Knowledge in everything that you do. If you have completed the book, Steps to Knowledge, twice through and have followed the instructions as they were given without altering the curriculum in any way, then you are now ready to begin this more advanced study”.

If you are an independent student, that is certainly an option. Posts here provide a trail that may let you have a virtual companion when and if you want one. One may have to study alone, as I did in the beginning. There are other Steps students blogging their experience and you might find a person more like you as a companion, or use a number of such Steps journeys. There are options as well through the Free School of the New Message.

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