x2 Step 136 – Journal Step 135 - I will not define my destiny today.

Today: Step 136 - My purpose is to reclaim my Knowledge and to allow it to express itself in the world. (MP3)

“My purpose is to reclaim my Knowledge and to allow it to express itself in the world.” Step 136

THIS WILL ANSWER YOUR QUESTIONS concerning your purpose. As you follow this purpose, your calling in life—which is a specific role that you will be asked to take—will naturally emerge step by step. It will not require your definition. It will simply emerge, and you will understand it more deeply and more completely with each step, for each step will fulfill it even more.

YOUR KNOWLEDGE IS YOUR PURPOSE. Remind yourself of this upon the hour, and be glad that an answer has been given. But the answer is not merely an idea. It is an opportunity for preparation, for all true answers to all genuine questions are some form of preparation. It is the preparation that you require and not answers alone. Your mind is full of answers already, and what have they done but add to the burden of your thinking? Follow, then, the preparation given this day and each day within our program so that you may receive the answer to your question. Your purpose is to reclaim your Knowledge, and that is what we will undertake today.

AGAIN, REMIND YOURSELF OF YOUR AFFIRMATION upon the hour. Give it thought throughout the day so that it may be the sole focus of your understanding today. In your two longer meditation practices, continue to repeat the word RAHN, which will stimulate Ancient Knowledge within you. You do not need to understand the potency of this practice to receive its full benefit. To receive its full benefit you need only practice it as it is given.

PRACTICE 136: Two 30-minute practice periods. Hourly practice

Picture: A powered parachute/paraplane at sunset - Shenandoah Valley, Virginia.

From the journal x2 Step 135 - I will not define my destiny today.

3:15 a.m. Monday, January 1, 2001

An interesting First Night in Winchester. Good music. We went with Ed and Mary M--- Over food – 1:00 a.m. I talked to Mary about GCW & Allies of Humanity.

Watching the night’s musical acts made me think about my life and my own lack of musical training/missed opportunities/failure to be disciplined in practice.

The notion of performance came to mind – how people had confidence as entertainers – how I'd been self-conscious early, yet observing the carriage of those on stage – putting on an act – the real purpose.

Driving home via I-81 – this reflection hit me again, yet the focus was GCW and the alien focus.

I wondered why I feared humans? When the real threat was aliens? Humans can't do anything to harm. Aliens can try. Most of my life I've been afraid of people – no reason to continue in fear of people. I can be/will be centered – and confident, not arrogant; strong in the face of ambiguity and supported. [Review 1/6/01] [Why be afraid of people?]

10:50 a.m. The new Millennium begins on a sobering note. The increasing acknowledgment of S2K and Greater Community influence. There is an irony of seeking to free the world when there are people here en masse that are not free.

There are enclaves of intent that will survive any alien manipulation. Tibetan Buddhist monks, Hopi elders, those who have mental self-control.

There is a Hopi saying that the new red man is the white man, and the new white man, the green man. Aliens will dominate the white man as the white man dominated the red man?

The conflict of enjoying the quality of life generated from the exploitation of the environment. We all sin – how much is too much? Guilt doesn't help one get out.

*** Boundaries help us not be responsible for the whole world.

The Hubble telescope has shown us a great and vast universe.

The Creator is – and life is present. Like other kits in the world; some assembly is required. The more we discover, the more responsibility we have for intelligent stewardship of life and its habitats.

Domination is not an alien force. It is a competitive goal which can drive humans too.

Future – yes there is a future. Who shall populate it? And how will they manage resources? The balls of life are in play.

When do we isolate (the wise remain hidden) and when do we engage – assert human sovereignty?

1:43 p.m. Getting ready for Practice #1. I just reviewed Ken Carey's The Third Millennium – it is beautiful in its language. It gives GCW in a warmer way.

2:26 p.m. After Practice #1 – Step 135 – I will not define my destiny today.

The challenge of living in the physical never ceases.

2:42 p.m. Still sitting in my computer chair, looking out the north window on my part of Front Royal. The hodgepodge of houses along/between Midland and New Avenues. From my perch I see the still life winter scene. Am I confused – or just challenged to integrate the viewpoints> Ken Carey – the Voice of God> Marshall Vian Summers – and illusion busting Holy Spirit where work is the order of the day.

Promoting the perspective of Regional Intelligence seems appropriate from either perspective.

8:32 p.m. It will take 30+ years for the land development thing to play out. I'll need to observe, think, right, promote for the next 50 years. It is all just beginning now.

Earth needs an expatriate view point to frame its actions. It is my democratic right and privilege to envision and promote a better future – where human values support human life.

10:45 p.m. Again reading T3M – trying to reconcile all of the messages – to find the message of God – of Christ – of the Saints.

Passage of time in the physical is quite slow compared to spirit – where things are instantaneous. Each work offers pieces to the puzzle – but it does not all come together.

11:15 p.m. T3 M is a beautiful story. It sounds like it could be relatively accurate, however it is something to be believed – not Known – sensed. S2K focuses on experience – not understanding – for they say participation comes first.

A lot going on. What is important? T3M – “The Third Millennium” by Ken Carey has a beautiful vision of humanity carrying its knowledge to the stars. This in essence, is the challenge of the New Message. Humanity must survive as a free and independent spiritual race. That is, we are told, its intent. We may not have conscious memory of that, but it does make sense if we do intend to serve the Creator. This might answer the why, but certainly not the how. Let us continue. We are only beginners – much more to wrestling to come.

NNC

Note: If you’ve some interest due to this or other Steps, you should go to the beginning blog post. From here you will learn about Steps to Knowledge and can begin it on the day that makes sense; then progress as needed. You can use the posts on this blog as a companion if it helps. They will remain in order in the archives - one post per Step.

Often it takes 18 months to get through the Steps once. For this blog, the pace is one-a-day, but it really makes no difference how fast you do it, only that you begin, persist and repeat. Posts here provide a trail that may let you have a virtual companion when and if you want one. One may have to study alone, as I did in the beginning. There are other Steps students blogging their experience and you might find a person more like you as a companion, or use a number of such Steps journeys. There are options as well through the Free School of the New Message.