TODAY YOU COMPLETE TWENTY WEEKS OF PRACTICE. You
have come this far, and from here you will proceed on with greater strength and
certainty, for Knowledge will begin to guide you and to motivate you
increasingly as you become attentive to it. You wish to be the servant and the
Master all at once because the servant is in you and the Master is in you. You
personally are not the Master, but the Master is in you. You personally are a
servant, but you are in relationship with the Master, and so your union is
complete. Thus, all aspects of yourself find their rightful place. All things
are brought into alignment and harmony with one purpose and one goal. Your life
is simple because it is in harmony and in balance. Knowledge will indicate all
things that must be done for you — physically, emotionally and mentally—to
develop this balance and to maintain it in your current circumstances. Think
not that any vital aspect will be overlooked or left undone.
CONGRATULATIONS FOR YOUR ACCOMPLISHMENT thus far.
Review the past six days of practice and gauge your understanding of your progress
appropriately. Allow yourself to be a beginning student of Knowledge so that
you may receive the very most. You will proceed on from here with greater
certainty and speed and greater involvement as well as you learn to utilize all
things for your benefit.
PRACTICE 140: One long practice period.
Yes, 20 weeks – there
are 52 in the year. We can recognize progress and look ahead. In “Living the
Way of Knowledge” the journey is compared to climbing a mountain: “You must take the steps
that take you to that vantage point on the mountain of life where you can see
clearly and understand where you are on the path and where it has taken you,
and to gain an appreciation of what is ahead and what it will require.” This imagery has been
and remains helpful to many students.
From the journal Step
139 - I have come to the world to serve.
Friday,
January 5, 2001
7 a.m.
On the surface I am unhappy, confused, angry. I don't know what the other
choices are, but I don't want to come back to earth. Too much work, too much
conflict, too many ways to fail. I am isolated – feel isolated. The adrenaline
that drives others, depresses me.
Step
139 – I have come to the world to serve.
7:50
a.m. And my emotions, my mind, tell me I've failed, I'm failing and will
continue to fail. Co-dependence is the way of the universe, living for others.
8:30
p.m. The work of the Commission has been done through networking. The
Commission itself is not a viable network, but it is the framework for networks/
networking.
– We
are a regional community.
– We
have a learning region.
–
The future is catching up/staying current, utilizing all that is.
–
Lack of specialization is a problem, need to build expertise and topics, then
network for the product
10:30
p.m. Every night @ 9 p.m. I need to gauge my mood when a scale +3 to -3 and run
this data six months or more to determine if there's a pattern to my moods. [1/13/01 –
This lasted one day] I can't
tell. I'm depressed now, but there are real reasons. I'm dealing with stuff –
plus – S2K says the emotions are on the surface – they don't dissuade me. I
felt worse earlier, but had come home and was doing some RI work. I'm really
only happy when I'm working – but space in-between – travel walking, down time,
is good for odd thoughts and insights. ---
More emotion; ugh. Unburdening is no fun. This 20
weeks is the second time we’ve been here. So much more to understand. Then
there’s the world. Let us continue.
NNC
Note: If you’ve some interest due to this or other
Steps, you should go to the beginning blog post. From here you will learn about Steps to Knowledge
and can begin it on the day that makes sense; then progress as needed. You can
use the posts on this blog as a companion if it helps. They will remain in
order in the archives - one post per Step.
Often it takes 18 months to get through the Steps
once. For this blog, the pace is one-a-day, but it really makes no difference
how fast you do it, only that you begin, persist and repeat. Posts here provide
a trail that may let you have a virtual companion when and if you want one. One
may have to study alone, as I did in the beginning. There are other Steps
students blogging their experience and you might find a person more like you as
a companion, or use a number of such Steps journeys. There are options as well
through the Free School of the New Message.
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