x2 Step 151 - I will not use fear to support my judgments. Journal – Step 150

Today: Step 151 - I will not use fear to support my judgments. (MP3)

“I will not use fear to support my judgments.” Step 151

DO NOT USE FEAR TO SUPPORT YOUR JUDGMENTS of yourself and the world, for these judgments are born of your uncertainty and anxiety. Thus, they lack the foundation of Knowledge. Thus, they lack the meaning and value that only Knowledge can bestow. Do not rely upon your judgments of yourself and the world. As you withdraw from them, you will realize that their source is fear, for you have only been trying to comfort yourself with your judgments, to provide a false security, stability and identity which you feel you are lacking. Therefore, be without a substitute for Wisdom and Knowledge, and allow Wisdom and Knowledge to arise naturally.

UPON THE HOUR REPEAT YOUR STATEMENT, and consider it in light of all things that are occurring today. In your two deeper practices, consider the meaning of today’s idea as you think about it carefully. Apply your mind in a state of work as you attempt to penetrate the meaning of today’s lesson. Do not be comforted by premature conclusions. Investigate deeply with your mind in your practice periods. Use your mind actively. Consider many things within yourself while maintaining a concentration on today’s idea. If you do this, you will understand many things about Wisdom and ignorance, and your understanding will be born of compassion and true self- appreciation. For only from a place of self-love can you offer correction to yourself and to others.

PRACTICE 151: Two 30-minute practice periods. Hourly practice.

From the journal

10:45 a.m. Tuesday, January 16, 2000 –

At work – have I lost the heart for it?

→conflict between regional geographies – market region from a pole –, governmental boundaries – crossing for trade – transparent boundaries. – Only in an area of many boundaries do you see/feel/get conflicts.

10 p.m. Age 54 and learning to learn. Worked until 6:30 p.m. – Burned out @ home. TV 8 – 10 p.m. – Still burned – here in my study. Every little thing here I own – as I look @ it – it draws my energy, it drains me – the "ownership."

Practice #2 –

Not much in the journal. Probably a challenging day: “Age 54 and learning to learn.” I continued; you should too. Old is 106, so 54 is just a bit past halfway and even at 68, I still have many years ahead in which to learn and seek wisdom as a Beginning Student of Knowledge.

NNC

 

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