x2 Step 273 - My Teachers hold the memory of my Ancient Home for me. – Journal – Step 272

Today:  Step 273 - My Teachers hold the memory of my Ancient Home for me. (MP3)

My Teachers hold the memory of my Ancient Home for me. Step 273

YOUR TEACHERS REPRESENT YOUR SPIRITUAL FAMILY that are beyond the world. They hold the memory of your origin and your destiny for you, which you must learn to realize through your experience in the world. They have traveled the ways of the world. They know of its opportunities and its difficulties. They know of the possible errors that you can commit, and they are aware of the errors you have committed already. They are fully prepared to guide you. They have the Wisdom and the accomplishment to do so.

THEREFORE, DO NOT UNDERESTIMATE THEIR VALUE to you and always remember that they are present in your life to initiate you into Knowledge. They wish for you to become strong in Knowledge, eventually as strong as they have become. Thus, they serve your greatest need and purpose, and you must follow them, receive them and honor their presence, as a student honors a teacher. This will allow you to receive their gifts completely and will free you from any false associations you may make with them. This is a very responsible relationship, and you will mature within it.

ACCEPT, THEN, THE PRESENCE OF YOUR TEACHERS. Accept it upon the hour as you remind yourself that they are with you, and accept it in your two deeper meditation practices as you open yourself to receive them. This is a great opportunity for Knowledge. Your Teachers will initiate you into Knowledge, for they can only be known. Your images or concepts regarding them are relatively meaningless, except in that they might limit your approach. You must experience your Teachers’ essence, which is their presence, to fully know them. And you will find out from this experience, as it develops, that this is how you can experience life as a whole.

THOUGH YOUR SENSES WILL PERCEIVE the form of things, your heart will experience the essence of things, and this is how things will become known. Once they are known, you will realize how you are to participate with them. Thus, all your faculties of mind will be utilized for one great purpose, for Knowledge will utilize all your faculties and the faculties of the world for the redemption of the world, which is the redemption of Knowledge within the world.

PRACTICE 273: Two 30-minute practice periods. Hourly practice.

From the journal:  Step 272 - My Teachers will guide me as I proceed.

12:15 a.m. Friday, May 18, 2001 –

→ The NSV is a place to give – that is a reason to be here. I have other reasons to give – David, Sarah, their kids –

The GCW of K does not promise love, money, fame, immunity from the world.

It offers Wisdom, K, relationship, community, purpose, accomplishment, – courage, consistency, self-trust, inner certainty, inclusion in life

– it will not add to my self-importance, compensate for self-doubt or self-hate, not a substitute for an inadequate or incomplete life, not a Band-Aid for inner conflict

– The promise of GCW is the inevitable – "inevitable because of what you will learn to value and because your true motives in life will become stronger and eventually will prevail over all other motives and incentives that you may have created for yourself or that you may have assimilated…” [Wisdom II – CH 34]

12:30 a.m. Spirituality comes forward to balance my intellect.

8:15 p.m. Regional cooperation is intentional – two or more intentionally cooperating across a boundary – such cooperation is a display of regional intelligence. The boundary is there because separation was intended.

→ End of the day…at work – I sent out the … Longerbeam letters for the June 14 Regional Water Supply meeting. Copied and mailed things myself – …

→ Working on living towns – and in the Valley Vision –

→ Gave the RI spiel to Mike F…. He really liked it. Most people do get RI – which is what encourages me to go on. I wish I'd tape the talk – but I'll do that later.

Capacity building – I'm building my own capacity – w S2K.

I see so many, many people – all going somewhere – all with dreams, goals, knowledge.

My mundane work…it stimulates growth –

8:33 p.m. – About investment. What do I think? With my pattern recognition skills I ought to be able to do stocks and invest.

What do I want? I want my investments to grow superfast because I didn't do better earlier – e.g. get help.

What do I know? I can do all stocks – or I can seek help. Do I have the courage to be contrarian? Not so far.

p. 428 W from the GC-II – "Idealism of any kind stands in the way of the reclamation of Knowledge. It is a choice for belief over experience, for ideas over relationships, for self-importance over truth,"

Idealism→ vrs Knowledge

Belief over→ Experience

Ideas over→ Relationships

→ Once upon a time I had in idealism about the world?

my belief in regional cooperation and my ideas about planning

– have been tempered by my experience and the relationships of the NSV – so – now I have

– the Fast Company business ideas – motivations did not work. People expected the PDC to be government – at least the employees did.

My experience with … – is to respect her power. I feel betrayed by her…she sucks away too many resources. It is wrong – it is cheating –

> Even if I'd done it right with … – I not have come to RI – nor have the time to advance my thinking.

> I Know the experiences were prologue and I Know I've saved most relationships and have been able to build. Idealism says I was damaged, Knowledge says it was an burdening.

> There was loss, there was change, there was grief, there was attack, I did have enemies – and I did have friends.

Learning from one’s experience, through the perspective of Knowledge, is frustrating and freeing. Frustrating first.

NNC

Note: If you’ve some interest due to this or other Steps, you should go to the beginning blog post. From here you will learn about Steps to Knowledge and can begin it on the day that makes sense; then progress as needed. You can use the posts on this blog as a companion if it helps. They will remain in order in the archives - one post per Step.

Often it takes 18 months to get through the Steps once. For this blog, the pace is one-a-day, but it really makes no difference how fast you do it, only that you begin, persist and repeat. Posts here provide a trail that may let you have a virtual companion when and if you want one. One may have to study alone, as I did in the beginning. There are other Steps students blogging their experience and you might find a person more like you as a companion, or use a number of such Steps journeys. There are options as well through the Free School of the New Message.

x2 Step 272 - My Teachers will guide me as I proceed. – Journal – Step 271

Today:  Step 272 - My Teachers will guide me as I proceed. (MP3)

My Teachers will guide me as I proceed. Step 272

YOU WILL REQUIRE TEACHERS TO GUIDE YOU as you proceed on the path to Knowledge, for you will be venturing far beyond your own concepts and assumptions. You will be engaged in a life that you have not yet comprehended. You will be accessing power and resources that you have not yet fully recognized. You will be venturing deeper into life, beyond human assumptions, beyond human beliefs and beyond human conventions. This will require very strong guidance for you, both from Knowledge and from your primary relationships. Your Inner Teachers represent your most primary relationships, for these relationships are completely based upon Knowledge, and they are given to you to cultivate Knowledge safely and completely.

THEREFORE, ACCEPT YOUR LIMITATIONS AS A STUDENT of Knowledge so that you may proceed with the assistance that will be required. Be grateful that such great assistance can be given to you and that it can permeate any circumstance because it is invisible to your eyes. Be grateful that you can experience it in any circumstance and that you can receive the counsel of your Teachers at those junctures in life where it is called for.

AFFIRM THE PRESENCE OF YOUR TEACHERS TODAY so that you may have great courage and enthusiasm in your support of the emergence of Knowledge. Upon the hour remind yourself that your Teachers are with you. In your two deeper practice periods, enter into stillness and silence with them so that they may render their presence and their counsel to you if needed. Accept your studenthood so that you may learn to give to the world.

PRACTICE 272: Two 30-minute practice periods. Hourly practice.

From the journal:  Step 271 - I will accept responsibility today.

7:05 a.m. Thursday, May 17, 2001 – The Regional Water Supply gets presented tonight – Local isolates, Regional integrates. Local is always bounded – regional is not. Bounding focuses the integration effort – the "New Integration”

If you want a service, you need to be a market –<create a parade and the leaders will get in front of it >  5/26/01

– Privacy by design –

I've had many experiences in this life. Whether or not I've learned – well – “slow learner here"

8:05 a.m. What's wrong with this picture? It's picture.

I need to send Sarah money weekly. I've sent money to David thinking he'd get out on his own. Sarah just needs support. $25 a week for the rest of my life…that won't hurt – until I have to stop.

11:09 p.m. Local Government Forum – Water Supply Presentation less effective – PC projector didn’t work. … The meeting went poorly – but the reception was good.

I'm still angry…but – the unburdening was needed and I'm still advancing projects.

Life goes on… I really needed a break from the PDC and got it. Steve was working late… he'll be doing more of that. I'll build my constituency.

…

from GCW II – CH-34 – Walking the Way of K

p. 415 "… intelligence itself creates a great and oppressive burden upon the individual".

My intelligence is not that great, but it is a burden. It is enough to envision perfection and – by failing that, always making the unhappy – always missing the mark. There are small successes in intelligence – yet the big when is never scored.

What I am doing… is beyond my intelligence. RI – regions work – is a mission beyond sense. I don't know how I got it. I'm afraid another will use it…but I'd be happy to have another who gets it.

Intelligence causes the pain, but spirituality comforts it –

Purposes

1. Have individuality accentuated & validated – more unique, important, special

2. Deeper desire for union, cooperation, community, affinity, shared purpose & shared accomplishment

 [text of above photo – can’t do actual arrows in text]

Really they are

1. Is desire for greater separation

2. Is desire for union

Yet the deeper part of you is looking for a place to Give ↑

Not looking to acquire more of what drives everyone in the world mad ↑

The Steps are getting more serious. This one is about responsibility. We’ve been here before, but the last time the answer was incomplete. Wisdom II tells us: "… intelligence itself creates a great and oppressive burden upon the individual", so reconcile that with our lives dedicated to become educated! OK – let us continue – there’s more to integrate.

NNC

Note: If you’ve some interest due to this or other Steps, you should go to the beginning blog post. From here you will learn about Steps to Knowledge and can begin it on the day that makes sense; then progress as needed. You can use the posts on this blog as a companion if it helps. They will remain in order in the archives - one post per Step.

Often it takes 18 months to get through the Steps once. For this blog, the pace is one-a-day, but it really makes no difference how fast you do it, only that you begin, persist and repeat. Posts here provide a trail that may let you have a virtual companion when and if you want one. One may have to study alone, as I did in the beginning. There are other Steps students blogging their experience and you might find a person more like you as a companion, or use a number of such Steps journeys. There are options as well through the Free School of the New Message.

x2 Step 271 - I will accept responsibility today. – Journal – Step 270

Today:  Step 271 - I will accept responsibility today. (MP3)

Greetings All – 

I will accept responsibility today. Step 271

ACCEPT RESPONSIBILITY, which is your ability to respond. Accept this, cultivate it, cherish it and welcome it. It is what will make you strong. It is what will make you devoted. It is what will bring to you the relationships you have always desired. This is the empowerment you so desperately need which you are learning now to claim for yourself. With this empowerment come the conditions for empowerment—that you respond to Knowledge and follow Knowledge, that you refrain from all motivations that are not born of Knowledge, that you become objective with yourself and your motives, that you question yourself without doubting yourself and that you surround yourself with individuals who can support the emergence of Knowledge within you and are free to tell you their own perceptions. This is essential for your well-being and development. This will protect you from self-error, which as you become more powerful will have greater and greater impact upon you and others.

ACCEPT RESPONSIBILITY TODAY. Accept this, for it represents your truest and greatest need. Responsibility will enable you to love and extend yourself into the world.

UPON THE HOUR THINK OF TODAY’S IDEA. And as you enter meditation twice today, take full responsibility for being a student of Knowledge and enter into stillness and silence with your complete being. Let no thought or doubt dissuade you. Do not let ambivalence hold you back. Press onward. Open yourself. Enter the mystery of your life so that you may be able to respond to it, for this is the meaning of responsibility.

PRACTICE 271: Two 30-minute practice periods. Hourly practice.

From the journal:  Step 270 - With power comes responsibility.

8 a.m. Wednesday, May 16, 2001 – Step 270 "With Power Comes Responsibility". – The text says – "Knowledge will empower you, and you must be responsible to Knowledge".

I feel responsibility to Knowledge, but do not feel any "power". If I had power, I'd help my children. I'm using K – what K has given me, but still the relationships are suffering.

Objectivity does not translate to "all life is sacred". There is a churning of souls – in the poor, uneducated/uneducable – and domination at the top among those with earthly power – political, military, economic.

K shows me a panorama of time, physical movement – gain and loss. Economic advantage is not the basis for life, yet comfort – stasis – is temporary.

Stephen Greer puts forth an interesting argument. UFO secrecy was warranted during the Cold War when alien technology could assist our enemies – the Germans & Russians – but no Cold War? No threat – so the secret government must be exposed. w/o that – it can't become the topic for open and public debate.

I am here – to be a resource – to be used.

10:30 p.m. Knowledge has no concern about my financial resources. I, in my personal mind, feel like a fool.

10:34 p.m. "With power comes responsibility". I believe this is true. I don't think I have "power". All my life I've not wanted power over others – because that would lead to death – I didn't want the responsibility of leading people to their death in the military. I don't/didn't want to threaten or be threatened. I want idealism – the right thing for the right reason – not that I've always done that, but I've usually had reasons for what I've done.

It is this that makes me not fit. Of course I've done the wrong thing often – investments for one thing… and, like the start of this – failure makes me feel stupid – though I wonder why I need the money anyway.

Getting rich has never been the goal – I've succeeded. To what degree does that make me contribute? Less than I might, for I see others contributing more selflessly.

What is my part? More alien analysis – thoughts of what is there? Still – that does not help. Humanity must be itself first. That remains, regardless of the level of contact.

text "It is very common in the world that people want power w/o responsibility for their idea of freedom is that they are not beholden to anything".

"I don't want any power I can't handle responsibly". Does that mean anything? The power is in the ideas and their use… it is an empowering.

I have plenty, if not too much. The power I lack is that of healing my kids.

If I were given wishes today, I'd use them for the kids that they might learn quickly and end their struggles.

11:31 p.m. What else can one do except seek Knowledge?

More self-assessment and detail about what of Stephen Greer’s perspective made sense to me. You may have your own challenges to make sense of the others who speak about ETs. Let us continue.

NNC

Note: If you’ve some interest due to this or other Steps, you should go to the beginning blog post. From here you will learn about Steps to Knowledge and can begin it on the day that makes sense; then progress as needed. You can use the posts on this blog as a companion if it helps. They will remain in order in the archives - one post per Step.

Often it takes 18 months to get through the Steps once. For this blog, the pace is one-a-day, but it really makes no difference how fast you do it, only that you begin, persist and repeat. Posts here provide a trail that may let you have a virtual companion when and if you want one. One may have to study alone, as I did in the beginning. There are other Steps students blogging their experience and you might find a person more like you as a companion, or use a number of such Steps journeys. There are options as well through the Free School of the New Message.