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| I trust my Teachers, who abide with me. Step 254 |
TRUST YOUR TEACHERS, for they are entirely
trustworthy. They are here to initiate Knowledge within you, to remind you of your
origin and your destiny and to guide you in matters great and small. Trust your
Teachers. They will not take the place of your Knowledge but will step back as
Knowledge comes forward within you. Trust your Teachers, for they have already
accomplished what you are now attempting, and they are teaching it to you now
so that they may fulfill their destiny in the world. Trust your Teachers, for
they have no goal or ambition other than Knowledge. Thus, their approach to you
is entirely uniform and honest—without deception, confusion or conflict of
mind.
AS YOU LEARN TO RECEIVE YOUR TEACHERS, you will
learn to receive their approach to life. In this, they will give you harmony, balance,
power and direction. You cannot respond to honesty dishonestly. You must learn
to respond to honesty with honesty. You must learn to respond to direction with
a desire for direction. You must learn to respond to commitment with
commitment. Thus, in your response to your Teachers, you learn how to respond. You
learn to value what is valuable, and you learn to release or overlook what is meaningless.
AS YOU TRUST YOUR TEACHERS, you will trust yourself.
Remember this upon the hour. In your two times of great refuge and happiness,
in meditation, return to your Teachers whom you now trust. In stillness and in
silence they will abide with you, and you may bathe in the depth of their love.
You may experience their universal affection and receive their grace, which
will only stimulate your Knowledge, for only your Knowledge will be stimulated.
PRACTICE 254: Two 30-minute practice periods. Hourly
practice.
Teachers abide. In today’s picture you can decide:
are the clouds your Teachers and you the mountains, or is it the other way
around? Maybe you are one of the stalks of grass, or a tree, so the clouds and/or
mountains are your Teachers. This view is from the road west from Boulder up to
Gold Hill, Colorado.
From the journal: Step
253 - All things I truly need will be provided for me.
More
issues than insights today. Long entry. This is always optional.
9:39
a.m. Sunday, April 29, 2001 – Texas – Confused – living among the confused. The
world is set up so the poor pay more and get less. This is not new – only that
through David & Sarah's lives I see it.
→Having David and
Sarah, their being adopted – and …– I … had many life experiences I never planned for.
Being a parent sent me in search of God. Urantia says every soul must parent @
some time.
I'm
ashamed, sad and angry – for my reaction is to take blame and make judgment,
but as a Student of Knowledge I know that is inappropriate and not helpful.
How
you live is immaterial? Not according to the four pillars.
Our
society is controlled by the big wealth which puts out junk for people to buy,
kills them with financing and 900 phone numbers. Leland had unblocked Sarah's
phone and ran the bill up to $1800.
The
game preserve example from Cheetah Outreach was an important lesson on
boundaries. In the fenced game preserves, with hard boundaries, the big species
dominate. The same thing is going on in the economy. (Hard boundaries limit
diversity.)
10:39
a.m. Practice #1 – 253 – "All things I truly need will be provided for
me". This meditation – in a noisy house – 3 adults, 4 kids, I began –
mentally putting my personal mind in a meditation place, so I could listen to
my impersonal mind or Teachers. My body was still – and silent, but there was a
tour – looking @ need.
Looking
back on my entire life I've gotten what I need to move me along. What about
David and Sarah, and those souls now and relationship with them?
I
can have faith for myself – but not faith for them. [They need their own
faith – my faith is that they learn.]
The
bigger movement that is happening – the move from tribal to community, is not
giving the support in family that the tribal one gave. The extended family is
not helping – the separation of suburbia is dysfunctional when family is isolated.
This
is ugly and wasteful.
Commercial
– community. Those that only seek commercial advantage – are not
long-term supporters of life?
The
day goes on. George didn't come home. Sarah is worried.
People
with too much and nothing all at the same time. M.E. – A relationship error?
Probably… Cindy? … But here I am and faith will take me to the end of my
physical life.
I
can't be Sarah's solution.
I'll
need to go home Monday, but may have to come back again. Sarah is my concern
and her baby.
S2K
isn't big on prayer. The Bible says <Jesus said> God knows our needs
before we ask.
This
commercial world creates wants and doesn't meet needs. Is that a mis-evolution?
The mind control of aliens or advertising or the status quo?
From
tribal to community – to global community. How long does that take so there is
no loss. To be satisfied with a niche, you need to recognize you are not the
pinnacle.
[new
journal]
4:58
p.m. Sunday, April 29, 2001 – In Texas – the afternoon spent with Sarah…
looking for George – meeting his Dad – who didn't Know much about Sarah.
When
I saw George and Sarah together they looked alike. I expected that Sarah looked
like George's mom – who is deceased. There – at his father's townhouse, I saw a
picture of George's mom – and she looked like Sarah… as I expected.
We
had a talk – I talked – Sarah may have listened. I told her I didn't like
paying for David's lessons or hers – ones M.E. and I already learned. She still
owes $$800 on her phone. I said I’d pay that – to get her phone back. She's mad
that we spent more on David
It
turned out George was on his way back to the trailer. We drove back – had the
talk on the way.
I
told her she kept people away with her anger – but would never learn if she
didn't talk about it. I told her men/boys were stupid/bad hurt her unless she
got smarter.
I
don't know if George will be the baby’s adoptive father… He's hurt now, as is
John, George's brother and his father. Who knows – the baby could be carrying
the mother soul back?
Step
253 – All things I truly need will be provided for.
I'm
getting what I need – except sanity through my kids. God/Spirit may not tackle
those problems.
To
show my power – get what Sarah needs – I bought her a new VCR @ Kmart $59 plus
tax and three videos – at Blockbuster –
>
I'll need peace.
11:22
p.m. Back @ David's – spent time w Sarah and George @ Tippins –
He's
bright, but has no particular direction. We had a philosophical – religious
discussion – me probing his knowledge. It's there – hidden – he's not got the
perspective on history – nor meaning, purpose or direction – Still – Sarah
meets his needs and vice versa. They may get married→ the gas smell in the trailer does not seem safe.
George's grieving his mother's loss.
The
relationship does not seem to be hurting either of them… So – I'll not say no,
though I am worried it will be long-term.
If
you read through to here, hope you received some benefit. Let us continue.
NNC
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