|I am committed to learn to learn. I am committed to give what I am meant to give. I am committed because I am part of life. I am part of life because I am one with Knowledge. Step 365|
Thursday, December 31, 2015
x2 Step 365 - I am committed to learn to learn. I am committed to give what I am meant to give. I am committed because I am part of life. I am part of life because I am one with Knowledge. – Journal – Step 364
Today: Step 365 - I am committed to learn to learn. I am committed to give what I am meant to give. I am committed because I am part of life. I am part of life because I am one with Knowledge. (MP3)
WHAT IS COMMITMENT but the natural expression of your true desire? It frees you; it does not bind you. It engages you; it does not obligate you. It fortifies you; it does not limit you. True commitment is born of true Knowledge, of which you yourself are born. In this final step in this stage of your preparation, give yourself and your entire day to practice.
HONOR YOURSELF for accomplishing a remarkable and substantial task in completing this one year of preparation. Honor your Knowledge for giving you the desire to participate and the strength to participate. Honor your Knowledge for giving you the vision that is now emerging. Honor all who have served you in your life—your family, your parents, your friends and your seeming enemies and adversaries. Honor all who have enabled you to value Knowledge and who have given you the strength and the resolve to undertake the preparation for Knowledge. Remember your Teachers as well, for they remember you and abide with you even now. Remember that you are a student of Knowledge, and with this you will be able to proceed forward in your preparation.
TODAY UPON THE HOUR and in your two deeper meditation practices, give yourself. Consider all that is given to you. Let this be a day of accomplishment and gratitude. Let this be a day to honor that Knowledge is real in you and that you are real in Knowledge. Open yourself to the next step beyond this program. The next step is awaiting you—a step that will meaningfully engage you with other students of Knowledge, a step that will meaningfully engage you with those who have advanced beyond what you have accomplished thus far, a step that will engage you in serving those who are only beginning to advance in the stage that you have just completed. Thus, you receive from those ahead of you and you give to those behind you. Thus, all are nurtured and supported in their return Home to God. Thus it is that you follow and you lead, you receive and you give. Thus it is that all of your activities become uniform and you find escape from all negative imagination. Thus it is that you are a student of Knowledge. And thus it is that Knowledge blesses you who are meant to bless the world.
Nasi Novare Coram
Picture: Since this is the final Step in the Steps to Knowledge practice, a message from the New God, reversion to the 1930’s Art Deco image of God at 30 Rock in New York City may seem out of character, yet the Old Testament verse from Isaiah 33:6 is absolutely consistent. That: “Wisdom and Knowledge shall be the stability of thy times” is likely an eternal truth for intelligent life. Certainly the world of 2015 becoming 2016 does not appear to be becoming more stable.
From the journal: Step 364 - Knowledge carries me because I am a student of Knowledge.
1:03 a.m. Saturday, August 18, 2001 – Two Steps to go. What will follow? How did I get here? The ever present problems of David and Sarah are an emotional drain. How might my life have been a better parent to them? I don't see the problems ending. I can only look to the future. The past is gone. The future must be cooperative. That's where I need to put my focus.
8:45 a.m. Upgrade your present – the future is all around you.
– What we have is a failure to future.
W am I?
the answer is in the Q
I could have a far more enjoyable life and intend to do so.
It has been possible for me to experience stillness as the core of my being. Seeing a world so enormous through the eyes of media, with so many people, too many for them to be Knowable, to encounter masses of people in the world… – to see – extend the stillness – to think/or Know? that the same stillness I experience is theirs too. That is great – and I am humbled – and confused. Alone like this I am free in the world and at peace. To be at peace in the presence of others – for future peace… ah – that is the challenge. And why, I still ask, aren't we doing better with children? Not the few, but the many.
Prodigality [to be prodigal] is endemic in offspring?
Learning, Learning, Learning. Even as interested as I have been in learning, it is a challenge to use it. Teaching is far more difficult.
> Regional is a framework that can be applied to most issues –
> My work is to develop the regional community model – make it visible
> The PDC is only prologue to this work
> You aren't the community unless you can "Act" as a community
1:46 p.m. I need to practice and work – and the work is here… So I'll stay here instead of going to the woods.
2:08 p.m. Practice #1 – Midpoint – I seek to understand/Know the relationships as explained in the Steps
– stillness is the source & Home
only by finding my work can I go forward.
Is my genetic family also my spiritual family? The body and environment I get is the best match to allow me to advance?
I am the point/ a point for my Spiritual family. All souls are in the same quest –
What has to be the same for every human soul? The desire to return to God.
How do others affect our/my relationship to K/G? How do those relationships affect me? M.E., David, Sarah, Cindy – pain, conflict, failure, teach & learn
> planetary subdivisions – settlement patterns – function & dysfunction
> Where is the future going?
> Regional community futurist – that seems to be the best name for what I do – want to do.
→ Cooperation – easy word add a noun like regional –
→ Cooperation is easy, power-sharing and cost-sharing is not.
→ It is all so simple, why is it so hard to communicate?
The experience of cooperation has often been one of dominance – subservience. We struggle to be free of dominators – and then get right back in. Thus consent of the governed; (consent of the enslaved). That's why the South had to fall.
7:42 p.m. Sarah has been taken to the hospital. She’ll be held for 48 hours. She lost it at David's. M.E. says she's not recovered from drugs yet – Who can deal with that? It is so sad.
This afternoon. Working on the lawn and yard. Why? I'm a hunter gatherer – not an Agricola?
– Living towns and cities.
– Balanced growth counties.
– Regional communities.
9:25 p.m. Talked to David. He’s sad he had to place a domestic charge against Sarah so she’d get into a psychiatric ward. I told him it was tough love. Sarah's bad makes David's problems look good – so M.E. is off David's case and will help him.
As I edge to completion of S2K the second time I should be more joyful, but I'm sad over Sarah. Bye & Bye – in the sweet Bye & Bye she’ll be healed and her baby and her life, but now it is painful for her and all connected with her.
9:38 p.m. Practice – Getting ready for #2
Had I not found GCW and S2K to grow/strengthen me in the past three years – I have no idea where I might be. Could have lost it – may be gone to drink more, reverted to Christian Fundamentalism – or just given up. I do, however, feel stronger – that the drama and trauma is not what my life is about. Adversity is focusing, though the world is unaware of what is going on within me – the world being the people around me. I am committed to the further emergence of my true purpose… and trust that I'll be able to discern the leadership of Knowledge in my life for the most part.
10:57 p.m. "Knowledge carries me because I am a student of Knowledge". I spent practice 2 walking – my body would not be still. I've eaten and wait for the chime. I am ready to move forward with K.
Walking to the P.O. – just to have a destination, I passed the office – and was reminded of the Valley Tribal Council – still unhappy with them.
Winding up this second time through, I lay out my true thankfulness for this teaching. I would have to rethink this period later, in response to a student in 2012, who said it saved his life. That was a strong statement. It took me a while to remember back how that had been true for me, and why I should witness to it. That is one reason I’ve undertaken this blog and shared by often uncomfortable journey. Let us continue. On January 1 it will be Continuation Training, Step 1.
Note: If you’ve some interest due to this or other Steps, you should go to the beginning blog post. From here you will learn about Steps to Knowledge and can begin it on the day that makes sense; then progress as needed. You can use the posts on this blog as a companion if it helps. They will remain in order in the archives - one post per Step.
Often it takes 18 months to get through the Steps once. For this blog, the pace is one-a-day, but it really makes no difference how fast you do it, only that you begin, persist and repeat. Posts here provide a trail that may let you have a virtual companion when and if you want one. One may have to study alone, as I did in the beginning. There are other Steps students blogging their experience and you might find a person more like you as a companion, or use a number of such Steps journeys. There are options as well through the Free School of the New Message.