x2 Step 105 – Journal Step 104 - God knows more about me than I do.

Today: Step 105 - Review (MP3)

IN YOUR REVIEW, FOLLOW THE PAST EXAMPLES and review the week of instructions and the week of practices. Give special consideration today to the ideas that we have presented. Understand that these ideas must be entertained and experienced through many stages of development. Their meaning is too deep and too great to be entirely obvious to you now, yet they will serve as a reminder that Knowledge is with you and that you have come to give Knowledge in the world.

OUR TEACHING WILL THUS SIMPLIFY ALL THINGS, which will resolve the conflicts that you carry now and which will make conflict in the future unnecessary. For to the extent that you are with Knowledge, conflict does not exist. An unconflicted life is the greatest contribution that can be given into the world, for this is a life that will spark the beginning of Knowledge in all, a spark that can carry itself into the future far beyond your individual life. It is this great spark that you are intended to give into the world, for then your giving will have no end and will serve your current generation and the generations to come.

THE BLESSINGS THAT YOU ARE NOW EXPERIENCING TODAY in your world are the result of these reverberations which are passed from generation to generation as Knowledge is kept alive in the world. The opportunity for you to have Knowledge is born of the giving of those who have lived before, as your giving will provide the opportunity for freedom for those who will follow. This is your greater purpose in life: to keep Knowledge alive in the world. But first you must learn of Knowledge—learn how to recognize it, learn how to accept it, learn how to discern it from the other impulses in your mind and learn the many stages of development that will be required in following Knowledge towards its great fulfillment. That is why you are a beginning student of Knowledge.

IN YOUR ONE LONG PRACTICE, undertake your Review in as much detail as possible. Allow confusion and uncertainty to exist, for this is necessary in this stage of investigation. Be happy, then, for all the things that can be truly recognized and know that Knowledge is with you, so you are free to be uncertain.

PRACTICE 105: One long practice period.

From the journal Step 104 - God knows more about me than I do.

December 1, 2000 – Friday

1:12 a.m. Saturday, December 2, 2000

→ Community is success – to perpetuate community – is the challenge.

→ Community exceeds the bounds of family.

→ Up late – surfing TV – watching bodybuilding competition – something that gives meaning to life

→ My discovery – What next? Continue Steps

I'm just a beginner!

The day’s entry was made past midnight. Step 104 is powerful, but even at the second go, its fine points may not be recognized. The text says: “It is your unhappiness that is bringing you to truth, for it is driving you to a genuine resolution. This, of course, is true.”

So, if it is unhappiness that has brought us here, should we be surprised that some of what we might think and even record in out journals is “unhappy?” It probably should be expected, so I’ve been delivering here to get to a greater truth and understanding. So, warts and all, let us continue.

NNC

Note: If you’ve some interest due to this or other Steps, you should go to the beginning blog post. From here you will learn about Steps to Knowledge and can begin it on the day that makes sense; then progress as needed. You can use the posts on this blog as a companion if it helps. They will remain in order in the archives - one post per Step.

Often it takes 18 months to get through the Steps once. For this blog, the pace is one-a-day, but it really makes no difference how fast you do it, only that you begin, persist and repeat. Posts here provide a trail that may let you have a virtual companion when and if you want one. One may have to study alone, as I did in the beginning. There are other Steps students blogging their experience and you might find a person more like you as a companion, or use a number of such Steps journeys. There are options as well through the Free School of the New Message.