x2 Step 172 - I must reclaim my Knowledge. – Journal – Step 171

Today: Step 172 - I must reclaim my Knowledge.

“I must reclaim my Knowledge.” Step 172

YOU MUST RECLAIM YOUR KNOWLEDGE. It is not merely a preference in competition with other preferences. The fact that it is a requirement in life gives it the necessity and the importance that it truly deserves. Think not that your freedom is in any way hindered by this necessity, for your freedom is the result of this necessity and will be born of this necessity. Here you enter a world of vital direction rather than casual choices. Here you become seriously engaged in life rather than a removed observer who can only witness your own ideas.

THE NECESSITY OF KNOWLEDGE, then, is the importance that it bears for you and for your world. Welcome necessity, then, for it frees you from the aggravation and the disability of ambivalence. It rescues you from meaningless choices and directs you to that which is truly vital for your well-being and for the well-being of the world. Knowledge is a necessity. Your life is a necessity. Its importance is not merely for you alone, but for the world as well.

IF YOU CAN COMPREHEND THIS IN TRUTH, this will override any sense of unworthiness or indolence that you may still possess. For if your life is a necessity, then it has purpose, meaning and direction. If your life is a necessity, then all other lives are a necessity as well. In this, you will wish to harm no one but instead will seek to affirm Knowledge in everyone. This necessity, then, bears with it the strength and the direction that you require and provides you with the grace and depth that you must receive for yourself. A necessary life is a meaningful life. Knowledge is a necessity. Give yourself to your necessity, and you will feel that you are a necessity yourself. This will dispel your sense of unworthiness and guilt and bring you back into relationship with life.

PRACTICE AGAIN UPON THE HOUR, and in your two meditation practices allow the word RAHN to take you deeper into the presence of Knowledge itself. The power of this word, a word unknown within your own language, will resonate with your Knowledge and will stimulate it. Thus, the means are mysterious, but the result is concrete.

PRACTICE 172: Two 30-minute practice periods. Hourly practice.

The Steps training is future oriented. Reclaiming Knowledge might seem like an activity for a setting like the pyramids, but it will need to be done in present and future environments like this modern setting in the Milwaukee Art Museum.

From the journal Step171 - My giving is an affirmation of my wealth.  

5:45 p.m. Tuesday, February 6, 2001 –

Disappointed? Yes – the office flounders – L…'s poor advice and work has botched up our systems.

I regret my errors – personnel and otherwise – that caused my fall – many errors – and true enemies – so S… goes to Richmond for VAPDC and I stay home.

The denouement forced me to accelerate RI – but I'm not certain I have the steam. Surely it is important – and I have something to contribute.

I look for the door. I doing my practices, I grieve when I must, like now.

The Step calls for reclaiming Knowledge, but on this day, dealing with grief. Ugh. These things we need to get through and this is a Step that moves us forward. We shall continue.

NNC

 

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