Today: Step 317 - I need but
relinquish my ambivalence to know the truth. (MP3)
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I need but relinquish my
ambivalence to know the truth. Step 317
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HOW SIMPLE IT IS TO KNOW THE TRUTH when the truth is
truly desired. How easy it is to recognize ambivalence and to see its devastating
impact upon your life. How simple it is to see the evidence of ambivalence in
the world around you and how it undermines the deeper inclinations of all who
dwell here. Seek, then, escape from ambivalence, for this is confusion. Seek,
then, escape from the burden of constant decision making and choice, for this
is a burden.
THE MAN AND WOMAN OF KNOWLEDGE need not burden themselves
with constant deliberation of what they must do, how they must be, who they are
and where they are going in life, for these things become known as each step is
anticipated and taken. Thus, the great weight that you carry in the world is
released from your shoulders. Thus, you begin to trust yourself and the world.
Here peace is possible and assured even for those who are active in the world,
for they carry stillness and openness within them. They are unburdened now and
are in a position to truly contribute.
REMIND YOURSELF OF YOUR LESSON UPON THE HOUR and as
you look upon the world, see the effect and influence of ambivalence. Recognize
how disabling it is and how it emanates from and supports confusion. It is the
result of attempting to value the meaningless and to ignore the meaningful.
Here things of no value compete with things of true value in the estimation of
those who perceive them. Recognize this as you look upon the world. Let not an
hour pass today without practice, for in this way this day will teach you the
importance of Knowledge. It will teach you that ambivalence must be escaped and
that it is the curse of confusion upon the world.
IN YOUR DEEPER PRACTICE PERIODS, escape your own
ambivalence and re-enter the sanctuary of Knowledge where in stillness and in peace
you can fully experience the power of Knowledge and the truth of your own
nature. This is a day of freedom. This is a day of understanding your dilemma
and realizing that your escape is at hand. Take this step with confidence, for
today you can escape ambivalence.
PRACTICE 317: Two 30-minute practice periods. Hourly
practice.
From the journal: Step
316 - I will trust my deepest inclinations today.
July
1, 2001 8:45 a.m. Where am I? I am not that important in the world. Ideas I
bring through may be helpful. It won't happen without work – I'm tired of work,
but life is work, so I'm tired of life. That is a conundrum.
What
are my deepest inclinations? I seek to Know the universe in which my
consciousness has manifested in an apparently self-reflective state. Life is
moving and human life, by virtue of its tools, affects the environment more
than any other earthly life form. Having come to this perspective – that my
consciousness is one of many, I find that relationships are many – and without
them – no existence. Mind/brains get damaged or limited due to biology –
genetic limits. So – in play – it is win, lose, or draw – or survive and
prosper, and at what level?
Human
beings required nurturing. This is not easy when there is a lot of change.
People expect to grow. The body reaches its genetic destiny when nourished and
is absent environmental damage. Relationships form – once just near – in the
tribe, local community, but now – far – indirect, subtle.
That
takes me from "in the beginning" to "now" and the
inclination is to help present a perspective that integrates life as now seen
with the outcome of the present trends of all our relations – seen, unseen or
potential. The context gets bigger – the forces are greater – and what
controls?
Is
it intent? Perhaps – but all intents can't be manifested without power and
Knowledge. Some intents are only power seeking and seek to dominate and deny to
others access to the power over their own lives.
10:24
a.m. My inclination is to become aware in the world and to act in ways that
lead others to awareness so that, together the world is safer for life, for
humanity.
10:58
a.m. - - - Our matter-of-fact life. Wearing sandals again brings me to a
younger, more energetic time. With the need for a lift in my left shoe, I gave
up on sandals 20 years ago – it seems. Odd this reaction – Jesus shoes they
were called.
11:44
a.m. Practice #1 done. My greatest inclination is to love. That is a pro-active
love I feel – doing, but not overdoing.
3:02
p.m. Is it hopeless to have Outlook 2000 help organize my work priorities?
That's how it feels. Yet – I've not been able to get a paper system to work
either. This is very confusing. It does not appear in GCW – I should really why
upon K to do that, H.S. – I did with ACIM – perhaps I didn't do it long enough.
Trying the "repair" option again. It didn't work before
3:15
p.m. What am I Knowing now that was not conscious before?
– My
deepest intention is love.
– I
came into the world because I love the world, as does the Creator.
– I
assume this is true for all souls…though their earth spells/manifestation
trauma has not led all to that awareness. They remain separated. Spiritual
family reclaims us. I was reclaimed. So – what am I to do with this awareness?
I was reclaimed by community. I was prodigal – and spirit searched me out,
found me, talked me back. I awoke and came back – and was met on the way.
Soul-suppressed
humans can be created by our culture. The greater community must find and
demonstrate love to the lost.
The
job of government and society is to invest in education. The educated become
restless and challenge what society gives them or they might use it for their
advantage.
7:57
p.m. Giving up…on Outlook – my mind map was the most effective management tool
I had…and that's what I'll use – I may keep an "ideas" database –
will have to see… It is quite difficult for me to be linear.
If I
am so –
A
day of thought and software wrestling. These Steps take us deeper into our own
thinking. There are many thoughts to connect. Let us continue.
NNC
Note: If you’ve some interest due to this or other
Steps, you should go to the beginning blog post. From here you will learn about Steps to Knowledge
and can begin it on the day that makes sense; then progress as needed. You can
use the posts on this blog as a companion if it helps. They will remain in
order in the archives - one post per Step.
Often it takes 18 months to get through the Steps
once. For this blog, the pace is one-a-day, but it really makes no difference
how fast you do it, only that you begin, persist and repeat. Posts here provide
a trail that may let you have a virtual companion when and if you want one. One
may have to study alone, as I did in the beginning. There are other Steps
students blogging their experience and you might find a person more like you as
a companion, or use a number of such Steps journeys. There are options as well
through the Free School of the New Message.
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