x2 Step 332 - I am only beginning to comprehend the meaning of Knowledge in my life. – Journal – Step 331

Today:  Step 332 - I am only beginning to comprehend the meaning of Knowledge in my life. (MP3)

I am only beginning to comprehend the meaning of Knowledge in my life. Step 332

YOU ARE ONLY BEGINNING TO COMPREHEND THIS, for your comprehension will be born of experience, recognition and the result of your application. Because you are a beginning student of Knowledge, you have a beginning comprehension. Take heart in this, for this frees you from attempting to draw conclusions about your participation and about your life. Thus, you need not attempt the impossible and can relieve your mind of a great burden that would otherwise overshadow your happiness and dispel your sense of peace and meaningful activity today. When you accept that you are only beginning to comprehend the meaning of your life and the meaning of Knowledge within your life, this frees you to participate and to learn more. Without the burden of judgment, which you would place upon your life otherwise, you are free to participate and your participation will make you free.

REMIND YOURSELF UPON THE HOUR that you are only beginning to comprehend the meaning of Knowledge in your life. In your deeper practice periods, once again enter your sanctuary of Knowledge so that your capacity for Knowledge may grow, your desire for Knowledge may grow and your experience of Knowledge may grow. Only as these things grow can your comprehension grow. Therefore, you are freed from judgment. You are free to participate, where all understanding will emerge.

PRACTICE 332: Two 30-minute practice periods. Hourly practice.

Yesterday:   Step 331 - What is small expresses that which is great.

Step 331 ends strongly with the sanctuary of Knowledge. That was recognized the first time through, June 12, 2000:

From the journal

Monday, July 16, 2001

8:25 a.m. Planning in isolation leads to waste and sub optimization, if not failure. Planning which does not account for succession, life-cycle, sustainability – is shortsighted. Regional Commissions were instituted to coordinate local planning to increase optimization. Optimizing the region was taken as a threat of minimizing the locality. Front Royal becomes the center rather than Winchester. The purpose of a Commission – is communication. The Great Commission – Go ye therefore and teach all nations – is about communication. It is possible to survive on limited communication…but not optimum. One needs to be open, yet able to discern.

9:21 p.m. Tired. M.E. sent me an email saying both were diagnosed as being bipolar – which is genetic. My return email…I didn't know that [Her reply reminded me of David's diagnosis in Massachusetts – but it led to no good]

I march to know beat, no drum – I follow my soul…feel isolated – yet connected. I feel that I'm doing what needs to be done…but there is no reward in sight. I wait for happily ever after…but I only get attack.

Journal was about the day, not the Step specifically. Let us continue.

NNC

Note: If you’ve some interest due to this or other Steps, you should go to the beginning blog post. From here you will learn about Steps to Knowledge and can begin it on the day that makes sense; then progress as needed. You can use the posts on this blog as a companion if it helps. They will remain in order in the archives - one post per Step.

Often it takes 18 months to get through the Steps once. For this blog, the pace is one-a-day, but it really makes no difference how fast you do it, only that you begin, persist and repeat. Posts here provide a trail that may let you have a virtual companion when and if you want one. One may have to study alone, as I did in the beginning. There are other Steps students blogging their experience and you might find a person more like you as a companion, or use a number of such Steps journeys. There are options as well through the Free School of the New Message.