CT Step 10 I will forgive my past today. – Journal – CT Step 9

Today:  CT Step 10 - I will forgive my past today. (MP3)

I will forgive my past today. CT Step 10

Ultimately, your past is meant to serve you as a resource, a resource of learning, accomplishment and failure, a resource to draw upon to illustrate what you have learned and are learning in The Way of Knowledge. But until the past can serve in this greater capacity, it still weighs upon you and casts a shadow over your life. You are still trying to run away from what has happened before, trying to counteract what you did before, afraid you will repeat your former errors, afraid the past will come to haunt you. Everyone lives with this burden to some degree, and some suffer under it tremendously every moment of every day.

In The Way of Knowledge, forgiveness means that you come to see the real meaning in things. You take a different vantage point, a different position. You see it in a new way. This does not mean you forget things or try to obliterate them from your awareness or tell yourself that they do not matter or that they never existed because the ghosts will haunt your house as long as they are allowed to be there. And they will be there as long as you create a place for them.

Therefore, today we practice forgiveness. In addition to your practice in stillness and your hourly exercises in Knowledge and discernment, recognize what you must release in your past. See what is still casting a shadow over you, what is still a weight upon your heart, a deep regret, an anger, a grave disappointment, a constraint from some earlier decision which is no longer necessary for you. What from your past haunts you today, disturbs you today, draws you backwards and out of the present moment?

Becoming a student of The Way of Knowledge will liberate you from the past because it gives you a whole new life, a whole new way of being, a new experience of being in the world and brings you to that greater purpose and meaning which are your inheritance. However, for you to advance towards this, you must look at your past to see what it can give you and show you in the reclamation of Knowledge. All true contributors have suffered and can now use their own suffering to help others, to free others and to educate others. Their past now becomes a resource for giving, a reinforcement for the truth rather than a denial of the truth. Even though you have lived without Knowledge in the past to a very great degree, the past can now serve you. Here the Creator brings all that has been created in the world and gives it a new purpose, a new meaning and a new application.

Look at each painful event and say, "What can this teach me about learning The Way of Knowledge?" And if there is still pain, feel that pain but understand that it can now serve a greater purpose for you. Wisdom is hard earned. Earn it. Practice it. Use it today.

Practice 10:    One 30-minute stillness practice.

                          Contemplation practice.

                          Hourly practice.

Picture: Butterfly wings on the forest floor. Symbolic of what? September 4, 2010

Plan B - If the MP3 doesn’t work, here’s the link to the folder: New Message - Student Spoken Steps CT Recordings - Steps to Knowledge Continuation Training - Working file

From the journal:  CT Step 9 - The Greater Community is in the world.

8 a.m. MDT September 2, 2001 – Boulder

– S2K – The Practices have saved my life, been my salvation, in that they’ve given me the spiritual foundation and mental tools to deal in this physical manifestation. The teaching appeared which connected me to the teachers. Nasi Novare Coram

– There is a greater harmony in the world. That I experienced in yesterday's practice.

9:15 a.m. Infinite communities – the guitar…the singer here at Unity Boulder…a beautiful tune on the guitar – thinking of all the tunes – the music from a guitar. The infinite possibility of that instrument – the infinite guitar – six strings – six string infinity. Every musical instrument has its own infinity. Bring many instruments together, you get an orchestral infinity.

Then – the thought moved to community – infinite community, not sustainable community.

Sustainable is within entropic modeling – all is going downhill. The goal should be infinite community – the infinite guitar, community as the instrument of humanity. (Intelligent life)

Infinite community. One day (moment /unit of time 5/19/02) at a time. As souls we are at some point in going forward.

→This a.m. Thinking about sports – which are mostly about failure and trying again with learning. The best athletes make the body serve the mind. In baseball batting .300 you fail 7 of 10 times. The best athletes master failure. In NASCAR – one winner, 42 losers – or to what degree did you win.

Fail forward – Chuck M… – engineering methods – and learn. Communities of practice – learning – failure/partial success.

We need to re-– language some things – into the greater community.

– Step 9 – "The Greater Community is in the world". September 2, 2001 On this Sunday I met Z… – a GC student who is also an abductee. – The first I've met – a living witness to GC presence".

As I’ve written before, in 2012 I came to remember that Steps saved my life. Here it is in writing:  – S2K – The Practices have saved my life, been my salvation, in that they’ve given me the spiritual foundation and mental tools to deal in this physical manifestation. The teaching appeared which connected me to the teachers. Nasi Novare Coram    

Again, the value of the journal process as well as taking time to “read yourself”. Sometimes when traveling, instead of taking a book or magazine, I decide to “read myself”, look at recent or old journals. Also, it is important to read your plan monthly, to determine if you are making progress, to remind yourself of your goals and to add or delete goals as necessary. We continue.

NNC

Note: If you’ve some interest, but this is the first time you’ve seen Steps, you should go to the beginning blog post. From here you will learn about Steps to Knowledge and can begin it on the day that makes sense; then progress as needed. Begin at the beginning.

If you do know about Steps, but have not done Steps twice completely, read the related materials, and have a sense of the direction of this study, you won’t get the experience. The Introduction begins:

“This is the Steps to Knowledge Continuation Training. It is designed to build upon the Steps that were learned in Steps to Knowledge to enable you to experience the grace, the power and the direction of Knowledge in your life and to become an expression of Knowledge in everything that you do. If you have completed the book, Steps to Knowledge, twice through and have followed the instructions as they were given without altering the curriculum in any way, then you are now ready to begin this more advanced study”.

If you are an independent student, that is certainly an option. Posts here provide a trail that may let you have a virtual companion when and if you want one. One may have to study alone, as I did in the beginning. There are other Steps students blogging their experience and you might find a person more like you as a companion, or use a number of such Steps journeys. There are options as well through the Free School of the New Message.