x2 Step 68 –Journal Step 67 - I do not know what I want for the world.

Today: Step 68 - I will not lose faith in myself today. (MP3)

Greetings All –

From the journal Step 67 - I do not know what I want for the world.

Wednesday, October 25, 2000

7:42 a.m. The State can use regions to manage or to empower or both –

The goal for the future is to be current [today.]

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8:50 a.m.AM – S2K – I don't know what I want for the world. I feel that I am failing. S2K explains that as my idealism and judging. I'm not poor now, but I feel that I will be tomorrow. I've not sought help on investing – when I did, the action was incomplete.

S2K says I am here to work. Is everyone here to work? I enjoy work – but want some play – some re-creation. Others play, others work, others are smarter within the world. I judge myself not very smart – and not motivated. These emotions and thoughts are, S2K says, independent of my work – distractions which I can learn to manage with Stillness, thereby connecting with my spiritual family, guides, unseen ones, etc. and accomplish my destiny…then move on to the next level.

There must be many, many soul paths. Freedom in manifestation must have been granted by the Creator – a decentralized, self-organizing creation, and this is one tiny segment of the play out of infinite possibilities.

Rural Virginia has to overcome geographic isolation.

9:07 a.m. Still @ home…called in to say I overslept. These glasses are killing me.

These notes show the underway process of figuring out Steps, their application in the world and relationship to The Creator. Relationship to the world – I’m about to be poor, takes energy too, as well as trying to adapt to tri-focal lenses: “These glasses are killing me.” The mundane feels real, so why try to deny it as illusion? Let us continue and laugh when we can.

NNC

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