x2 Step 194 - I will go where I am needed today. – Journal – Step 193

Today: Step 194 - I will go where I am needed today. (MP3)

“I will go where I am needed today.” Step 194

ALLOW YOURSELF TO GO WHERE YOU ARE NEEDED, where you need to go. This necessity of action will give value and meaning to your activities and will affirm your worth in all of your engagements this day. Go where you are needed, where you need to go. Discern the actual motivation for this and distinguish it from any sense of guilt or obligation to others. Do not place artificial demands upon yourself. Do not allow others to place artificial demands upon you beyond your simple duties in this day. Go where you are truly needed.

REMIND YOURSELF OF THIS UPON THE HOUR, for its meaning must be penetrated to be experienced. If you are accustomed to guilt and obligation, today’s idea will seem to compound your difficulty. Yet, today’s idea is really an affirmation of Knowledge within you, providing an opportunity for Knowledge to guide you and to demonstrate its value to you. It has nothing to do with dependence, for you must be independent of false things to follow that which is true. This is the value of all independence.

IN YOUR LONGER PRACTICE PERIODS, go deeply into Knowledge. And when you are in the world, keep this idea alive. Allow yourself to feel a deeper presence within you as you are out in the world of mundane things, as you are out in the world of small considerations. Greatness is here to serve the small. Remember.

PRACTICE 194: Two 30-minute practice periods. Hourly practice.

Note: “Go where you are needed, where you need to go. Discern the actual motivation for this and distinguish it from any sense of guilt or obligation to others.”

From the journal:  Step 193 - I shall listen to others without judgment today.

7:30 a.m. February 28, 2001 – Funky morning.

11:20 p.m. Today's step was to listen to people without judgment. I listened – what did I experience? My distance from others? That they have problems? I did not get a knowledge connection.

Seeking a Knowledge connection; but not finding one – am I doing it correctly? The Step page has a note:

 

In blue, year two: “More practice needed – lots more 3/3/01.” Still true – let us continue.

NNC

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