x2 Step 25 – Journal Step 24 - I am worthy of God's love.

Today: Step 25 - I am at one with the greatest truth of life. (MP3)

I am at one with the greatest truth of life. Step 25

I AM AT ONE WITH THE GREATEST TRUTH OF LIFE.
WHAT IS THE GREATEST TRUTH OF LIFE? It is something that must be experienced, for no great truth can be contained in an idea alone, though ideas may reflect it within your current experience. Great truth is a product of great relationship. You hold a great relationship with life. You hold a great relationship with your true Teachers who are within you. Eventually you will experience great relationship with those in your outer life, but first you must experience the source of your great relationship in its true establishment already. Then it is a matter of merely transferring it to the world outside, which you will do naturally in time.

IN YOUR TWO PRACTICE PERIODS, practice feeling this relationship. Again you are asked to receive because you must receive this to give it. Once it is received, it will give of itself naturally. In the process of this your worth is re-established because it is quite apparent. You do not need to misrepresent yourself or your experience. To share a great love honestly means you must be experiencing it. It is this experience that we wish to give you today.

PRACTICE 25: Two 15-minute practice periods.

Picture:  Rainbow - Dickey Ridge Trail, Shenandoah National Park - May 13, 2002

From the journal Step 24 - I am worthy of God's love.

7 a.m. Tuesday, September 12, 2000

8:05 a.m. Slow to engage in life this morning. The Step #24 – "I am worthy of God's love," easily applies to others, but with difficulty to me. Planning for the future and living in the present gets more difficult. I've lost my inspiration? I'm bored with manifestation? I'm lazy and indolent. I'm confused – so do nothing. I think, but thoughts go in circles. The rest of the world does not seem so inflected. They pursue their interests.

Now I feel I'm in the wrong place, but don't know how to get to the right place. What I see and envision does not seem to fit the world on some days, yet on others it does.

9:25 a.m. Where am I? Immersed in the projects of the day. The region, as an organizing principle, remains invisible. I too feel invisible – yet needed as a networker. Time is short – cooperation builds slowly. Where is life if not in cooperative self management? "I am worthy of God's love." Why? Grace

10:45 p.m. I wish I could know, stay connected on a continuous basis. Working less, working more – eating, eating, eating – so empty – w/o friends. What is next? Why would I be committed to humanity?

The idea that one, specifically is worthy of God’s love is hard even today. The thought in 2000: “easily applies to others, but with difficulty to me,” still occurs. I still do things wrong, think wrong, act wrong. Less so than in the past, but still – still not perfect. Let us continue.

NNC

 

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